What the fuck am I doing? I can't please anybody else... might as well worry about myself right? Well what the hell are you supposed to do when what you want is to make someone else happy? If I had all the answers I'd write them down and sell them in a book and make millions, then everyone would be happy.

Ultimately that's all that I want, to make everyone happy. Me included.

Ever get a phone call that just makes you have a bad feeling deep in the pit of your stomach? I hate those. It's not so much bad news as just wondering what's going on.

I hope everything works out.

Though we may search the world for that which is beautiful... Unless we have some beauty inside us we will find nothing.